About fear and lack of control

I am afraid of losing control. Control of my body, of my life, of my surrounding. It is related to everything. That is why I became a perfectionist. I am trying to do everything in a way which I can control it.

My actions and my decisions are based on this fear: I do not smoke because I cannot control addictions; I care about my health because I cannot manage illness; I do not travel to dangerous countries – again, the same reason.

I believe, most of the people have this fear. People are afraid of insects not because of disgusting look or because it can hurt them, but since it is impossible to control your body in case if you got poisoned. The same reason is for fear of death or unknown. It is all about control.

So many fears connected to this particular one: we are afraid of death of our beloved because we can't control their death, we can't control our pain because of it, and we can't control emotions which can destroy us.

To my mind, the lack of control is the most powerful fear. So many people study medicine, psychology, science to find the way to overcome their greatest fear, but the truth is: when you face your fear it becomes not so scary.

“The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it,” said Oscar Wilde. The same with fear: to overcome it, first, you have to face it.